Helpless

At the beautiful, marble Oneness Temple in India

I returned about ten days ago from a month-long stay in India.   I was at Oneness University in southern India, near Chennai, and had a very profound experience of permanent Awakening.  In the course I attended, there were about 400 people from all over the world, and I think at least 90% became awakened. Currently, according to Oneness University, there are about 470,000, and growing, permanently Awakened people on the planet…. and about 163 million people living in Awakened states.

If you know me, you know how important a phenomenon I believe the Oneness Blessing is to the world. The Oneness Blessing (also called Deeksha) comes from the avatars and founders of Oneness University, Sri Amma and Sri Bhagavan. The Oneness Blessing is a transfer of energy that can lead (through an act of Grace) to a permanent neurobiological shift in the brain – a shift in the consciousness of Oneness.   With that shift comes an end to inner conflict, the perception of separation, suffering, and, thus, a return to our intrinsic state of bliss and consciousness.

If there is one gift that I’d love to give you, it would be the gift of Awakening. To end the suffering of humanity would be to create heaven on earth. But as a Oneness Blessing Giver, I can’t personally cause anyone to Awaken. Although the Oneness Blessing is an energy transmission that sets the stage for Awakening, when it comes down to having the actual neurobiological Awakening shift occur, only your Divine can give that to you as an act of Grace.

I’d love to share with you about the state I was in that, perhaps, did set the stage for Divine Grace to step in and create a neurobiological awakening shift for me: in a word, it was the state of down-right helplessness.

The state of psychological and spiritual helplessness requires an act of surrender.  For me, I saw for myself that even before I left Chicago, I did not have any control over the inner urging to go spend a month in India, which actually was something I was in great resistance to doing! Yet, a profound force was compelling me to go there. I couldn’t understand why I was going, didn’t want to go, but I found myself putting one foot in front of the other, and getting on that plane!

Once in India, I saw quickly that I would be confronting many illusions I held dear about how much sleep I believed I required, what kind of foods I could agreeably eat, who I could be happy rooming with, and how my body would hold up to long hours of sitting in classes and strenuous sadanas (spiritual practices).

In fact, we started class at 7:30 am, mainly seven days a week, and finished up sometimes as late as midnight or even later a few times.   My body did things I never imagined it could do – and for the most part, any pain I felt, came and went rather quickly.  I discovered my body tapped into wells of energy that came from the high spiritual vibration of Oneness University, generated by the Oneness Guides (monks) and founders Sri Amma and Sri Bhagavan. It was magical and beyond my normal way of being in the world.

So, very quickly, it was required of me to embrace helplessness. I had to surrender control….and what a tough nut to crack I was!  Like most of us, my mind clung rigidly to my ideas of what I needed to do in order to survive.  I had all sorts of concepts about right and wrong, fair and unfair, and how, if I could figure out the “rules” of life, I would eventually be happy.

What I came to experience was, instead, that I know nothing about what I need, and can’t make anything happen anyway.  I saw how laughable my illusions of control were….and a great humbling came over me.  That humbling was the doorway through which my Divine could help me, and, in fact, give me all that my heart has been desiring.

I am part of a greater whole of which I can’t possibly understand with the mind. I learned that what is necessary is for the mind to de-clutch, to let go of concepts, and to have a willingness for a greater power to step in and allow me to perceive reality as it is — which is an incredible expression of the Divine, inclusive of all that is both dark and light, timeless in nature, and eternally changing as a living, conscious intelligence of which we are all One.

Letting go and trusting in the Divine Intelligence is to live in the flow of the reality and magic of life.   In this flow, abundant with synchronicity and continuing evidence of a Higher Power, there is innate joy and an ability to engage with the present moment.   It is in the present moment where we are able to truly experience this sacred thing called life.

So having experienced a shift in consciousness, what is clear is that my purpose is to continue to be a channel for the Divine.   There no longer is a sense of separation within, and instead, when turning inward, there is a spaciousness filled with the All.

My role continues to be a communicator of some essential truths: Your personal Divine — whether you call it God, the Universe, the Higher Self, Buddha, Jesus, whatever fits for you — is waiting for you to let go and allow miracles to occur in your life. My role is to help you connect with your personal expression of the Divine. In that connection is healing, awareness, and liberation from suffering.

I am continuing to offer the services I’ve been offering and am also engaging with my Divine in opportunities to serve that I can’t even imagine in this present moment.  What a beautiful and exciting adventure!

There will be two free conference calls (each lasting no more than one hour long) that I’ll be holding to share with you a short meditation and a Oneness Blessing.   After the Oneness Blessing, I will be happy to answer any questions you might have about Awakening or about my personal experience in India. At the end of the questions, I will give another Oneness Blessing.

The conference calls will be on Thursday, March 7, at 8:00 p.m., central time and on Tuesday, March 12, at 8:00 p.m., central time. Please email me for the dial in number and code. My email is paula@fromtheheartcenter.com.  (note, while I am not charging for the calls, your phone carrier will have whatever rates may apply for long-distance calls.)

Namaste!